Financial insecurity follows me around like a little pesky, taunting entity. It’s based in my reality. As a freelancer my income is inconsistent. I have debt. I was never taught money management skills and I never sought them out.
Above all, I’m afraid of money – having it AND not having it.
This is because I see my financial worth as a reflection of my personal worth. My heart knows this isn’t true, but my busy little poisoned mind likes to tell tall tales and say that it is true.
I’m working on it. Unpacking it. Observing it. Releasing it.
My bank account, my tax return, my debt – they don’t reflect my worth as a human being.
I wrote this entry about 1 week after I got the You Need A Budget app. A game changer for me.